So, I just woke up and Its 11:02 a.m ( for a guy that suffers from sleep depravation, sleeping more than 5 hrs a night is amazing )My body is sore as all hell, and now im driving to my trainers home in Pasadena, yesterday I started my training for the AIDS Lifecycle, and must say that Im so excited to start working out again and having my body back, and doing all this for a great charity is even better. Ive also had some time to think of my life and the direction that I want to take it, a philosopher ( for the life of me I cannot think of his name, much apologies to Mr Kauffman at USC )' life's greatest enemy was love, when it is mixed in with life it does nothing but end it '. This shall be my new mantra, FUCK love, I'm going to go ahead like a machine ( moving through the emotions ) and look forward not to the sides and never ever, back.
I'm 28 and about to embark on a new year, new possibilities and responsabilites, guys are always going to be around and I have to live my life for me. Never look back, good guys dont always finish last sometimes they dont try it and assume they will win the heart of the one that left them.
Untiltled version 3.
-You're too far to bring you close and too high to see below, just hangin' on your daily dose I know you never needed anyone or anything but the rolling papers for your grass.How can you give what you don't have? You keep on aiming for the top
And quit before you even try...Feed your empty brain with your hydroponic pot, playing mind games with me wont get you far, but I will amuse you and pretend to fall into them. You get more fun within your shell
Nice to have met you but I have to resume my life. I'll leave again `cause I've been waiting in vain you're so in love with yourself If I said that my heart is sore it would all sound but a cheap metaphor so I won't repeat it.
We've been diffrent since day one, I eat my soup with my hands and you rather eat it with a fork. I see light, where you see darkness and for a time I saw darkness, and no thanks to the pills I was prescribed...I finally see light again. The hope that your love brought me was never done by anyone else. That I promise you.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
I will let you down, I will make you Hurt
Stumbling home I hurt myself today to see if I could still manage to feel, focusing on the pain the only thing that's real. The needle tore a hole causing the old familiar sting,Trying to kill it all away but luckily I remember everything. What have I become? My dearest love? Everyone I know and have ever loved manages to go away In the end. At my end you will have it all even my empire of dirt
I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair full of broken thoughts, that even my heart cannot repair, beneath the stains of time slowly the feelings disappear.You are someone else as I am still right here. If I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself. I would find a way
I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair full of broken thoughts, that even my heart cannot repair, beneath the stains of time slowly the feelings disappear.You are someone else as I am still right here. If I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself. I would find a way
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
I hear it...
So, Im just about to leave the office and have made plans to spend today with loved ones, and drop off the last gifts on my list. I wanted to leave you guys with some new mixes that Ive worked on, and hope you love.
Rihanna Vs. Migs
http://www.zshare.net/audio/53223223a6d4c4f1/
The Ting Tangs ( Great DJ )
http://www.zshare.net/audio/532233946507d44b/
Britney Spears - Unusual You ( Migs Mix )
http://www.zshare.net/audio/532236422b9c4e01/
JC Chasez All Day long I dream about SEX
http://www.zshare.net/audio/53223704a9a1ae68/
http://www.tofighthiv.org/goto/miguelmigs
Monday, December 22, 2008
Not afraid....
Your here with me now so take off your halo, just take off your golden crown.
The spotlight's off and the shades are down. Where are your friends now, they're ghosts in a windowpane you have to know that sometimes it's hard to stay the same.
I have learned that we can live lifetimes in a single day no matter what you do, I'll love you anyway. You say that you dont want to let me go, cuz you dont want to face the truth, you're afraid to be lost inside well, I get lonely, too. Even in the worst of times, I give my best to you. I dreamed last winter that I was swimming, fighting the undertow, that we both were drifting in circles, no place to go And when I woke up, I was wringing wet, oh so much stronger than before. I'll always be with you to hold your hand, even when the words around us escape and all the silence around us loud. I know that the look in your eyes can never betray me, for I am not afraid.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
AIDS LIFE CYLE PAGE
I'm Riding to End AIDS and Stigma In the Latino Community and need your help!Its no secret that my passion has been AIDS prevention and advocacy and I’ve been fighting for the last few years on the Stigma that is still prevalent in the Latino Community regarding HIV/ AIDS.
http://www.tofighthiv.org/goto/MIGUELMIGS
http://www.tofighthiv.org/goto/MIGUELMIGS
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
' allegedly'
So, I kinda forgot to tell you that I went to Kathy Griffin's show at the ' KODAK Theather ' on Thursday December 11. I was invited by her Manager and it was something I couldnt refuse, the seats were in the second row and had a perfect view of Kathy, and I was seated next to LC! ( I know, I know.. there is a part in her routine where she makes fun of her, I wanted to glanse over and see her reaction but didnt have the balls ) I gotta make this baby short and sweet because Im already running late to meet my client, until manana.
xoxo Gossip Girl
Monday, December 15, 2008
The beat of the drum
Hope every one's weekend was great, mine was great felt that I finally smiled and it was a real smile, it hasn't been like that for a few weeks. On Sat the agency and I took part in the ' Highland Park Xmas Parade ' just felt very sweet to see the kids out there just waiting to see a glimpse of 'Santa Claus' and how many people are aware and proud the work that we do at the agency, it just made you feel all warm and cuddly inside. On Sunday, I donated some of the toys to ' Para Los Nino's ' which Is something that I have always wanted to do, since they helped me out when I was a kid and gave me toys so this is just a small way to pay them back and make a child smile, and the rest of the Sunday, well all I will say, is that my hand was warm.
Had some time ( more like a hot minute ) and wanted to load up these babies, and share them with you guys. Hope you love them, as much as I loved mixing them.
Michael Jackson Vs MIGS
Beyonce vs MIGS
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Well, It could have been worse.
So, after I posted the remix I had made of Britney's ' trouble mixed up with Madonna's ' Get Together '.. anyways, Its been posted on a blog that I adore. The bad part is that I wasnt given any credit.
'MADONNA AND BRITNEY: Trouble/Get Together (MashUp)
Posted by Sjay on Saturday, December 13, 2008
While everyone has been saying that the Britney Spears bonus track Trouble sounds like Madonna's Get Together it seems that someone was mashing the two songs together! Here is that Mash-Up for you to enjoy! See what you think...
Trouble/Get Together (Download)
'
While my remix was posted 2 weeks ago on this blog....Argh!
'MADONNA AND BRITNEY: Trouble/Get Together (MashUp)
Posted by Sjay on Saturday, December 13, 2008
While everyone has been saying that the Britney Spears bonus track Trouble sounds like Madonna's Get Together it seems that someone was mashing the two songs together! Here is that Mash-Up for you to enjoy! See what you think...
Trouble/Get Together (Download)
'
While my remix was posted 2 weeks ago on this blog....Argh!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
More songs for the Ipod!
I guess going to the gym has renewed my love for mixing, here are a few more songs that Ive worked on, and hope you love them.
First up:
Lady Gaga ( Just Dance )
Britney Spears- Circus ( Migs Tribal beat drum )
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Meeting one of my heroes....
I will get to all I did on the weekend, and believe me it was ALOT! but first I wanted to share some pics of my meeting one of my heroes Father Geoffrey Farrow who was a longtime Catholic priest who revealed recently that he is gay and opposed to Proposition 8, the November ballot initiative that would overturn the California Supreme Court's decision earlier this year allowing same-sex marriage. As a result, Farrow has been stripped of his job as a parish priest in Fresno, including his salary and health benefits. The meeting was something that I organized with faith leaders and guys from my Mens' group, it was beautiful how they all came together and expressed interest in his story, it didnt matter what religion they followed they just wanted to understand.
To read about his journey, you can read the amazing article L.A times did on him.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Miguel_Migs: TROUBLE ( Migs Vs Madonna n' Brit )
Have alot to post/talk about, but first I wanted to remix something and forget about work for a lil bit ( yes, I like to do that sometimes... just not too often though ). I have been loving Britney Spears ' Trouble ' and noticed that it had the same BMP as Madonna's ' get together ' and that it also sampled the bass line from Stardust ' Music Sounds Better With You ' so, a few cups of coffee and here you go.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Making me smile.
So I have finally arrived back in L.A, glad that the weather from Fresno was able to follow me as I arrived here @ 5 a.m, and of course had to come in to work. As I entered my office the phone rang, and I thought ' Oh.. goo die.. work ' with my sarcastic,' I haven't had my coffee yet' tone, and who was on the other line made my entire day. It was one of my clients that I have been working with, he told me he was ' blessed ' to have me in his life and that I have helped him turn his life around, and that he had just gotten his tests back and he was now undetectable in his Viral load. This made me get all teary-eyed, you know how a' lloron' I am and I just wanted to hug him for doing it, I helped but he did it, and made such a huge improvement in his life, and touched mine as well. After what seemed to be about 10- minutes of us crying he also told me that he had found love, and was happy. I couldn't think of a more deserving person on whom to fall in love, and this made me think of my ' love life ' and got me a bit sad for the state that it is in. At least the weekend is coming and I can go and unwind for a bit, awe I'm getting a lil down now. * HAPPY THOUGHTS...HAPPY THOUGHTS *
Thursday, December 4, 2008
If you seek Amy
So, Im back at my hotel room, Ive been in and out all day and trying to make sense of why Fresno is soo , I dont know how to describe it just dont want to be blunt and say its dead, but Its a nice type of ' dead ', solace, whispers, grey, cloudy, desolate and white these are just words that come to mind. I am so happy that I can head out tomorrow night back ' home' , and even though Im not at work.. Im at work. I fixed my blog, and tried to give it a better look, and have been answering work emails, and planning the toy drive so alot of excited things coming up.
There is a ' Britney ' party in the bar next to the hotel but I dont feel like going, I am actually trying to see this as a mini 'vacation', its sad that I view these as time away, from myself or something by the sort. Its getting late and my room service has been taking too long, I even called the restaurant to see if they have a 30 min time limit, and sadly they dont. I did get some good news today, my brother Danny called and said that my dad is having a BBQ this Sat afternoon, so Im really looking fwd to it, and that he was asking how I was doing after my motorcycle incident, and that made me feel really good. I think I am finally on the track that I was with my family, if only I could have the husband and white fence then everything would be in place. And before I forget I did get my hair cut, so I will add the pics when I get back since I dont even a cam here. Damn..lol
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
So tired....but well worth it.
Yesterday my day started at 5 a.m and didn't stop until 11: 30 p.m, of course with a 15 minute lunch break ( mandatory, mind you ) all of this was for our 15Th Annual ' Noche De Las Memorias '. I had several interviews, and I must have looked soo tired because thats what my dad called to tell me @ 3 a.m ( he is a late owl like me ) Its always held on December 1st to commemorate WORLD AIDS DAY, and this ceremony is done to induct new names to ' the wall ' of people that have passed due to AIDS. Last night was amazing, few times have I been left speechless, to be able to see the community come together and become one and show their solidarity in the fight against AIDS. It made all of the hard work worth it and then some, just being able to see all the faces of people that have had loved ones affected by this disease really made you acknowledge life. After I got home, I took a long shower and tried to unwind but still was too wired to do anything, and of course I didn't go to the Britney Spears release party that I had worked so hard to get on the ' list ' for.
So, here I am writting from home, and trying to not think of my ' wildflower ', even though its hard I cant stop and think of him and wonder what he is up to, and all that jazz. I'm also working on a venture that I'm gonna ask for your help on, I am organizing a Toy Drive to benefit ' Para los Ninos ' partly because of the hilarious Kathy Griffin episode where she sets to build a school in ' Mejico ' due to her contract with ' Para los ninnnoz '. I'll have some more info on that soon.. cuz well Xmas is just around the corner.
Friday, November 28, 2008
In my head...
So, as many of you know I own a motorcycle. I got it right after I was accepted to USC and was going through a difficult time in my personal life. I usually spend my free time in the Azusa Mountains with it, riding it and learning how not to fall on it. SO... yesterday, I was really bummed, I spent the holidays alone and was just thinking and just stuck in a daze I guess. As I was taking off, I decided not to wear my helmet, since I am trying to be comfortable enough with the bike.... long story short, I feel off of it again when a car almost side swiped me. I'm aiight, my arm is messed up and I messed up my head again. Needless to say It wasn't the worse part of my ' holiday ' I'm just glad to be back at work. Below are some of the pics, I took after I rode home, WITH MY HELMET.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
but thats the chance...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uEPiHSqEMSA
Only the lonely know the way I feel tonight.
Only the lonely know this feeling ain't right.
There goes my babes there goes my heart, they're gone forever, they're so far apart.
But only the lonely, know why I cry, know the heartaches I've been through.
Maybe tomorrow, a new romance, no more sorrow, but that's the chance.
Only the lonely
Only the lonely know the way I feel tonight.
Only the lonely know this feeling ain't right.
There goes my babes there goes my heart, they're gone forever, they're so far apart.
But only the lonely, know why I cry, know the heartaches I've been through.
Maybe tomorrow, a new romance, no more sorrow, but that's the chance.
Only the lonely
memories come and run....
I had decided a few days ago, that I wasn't going to blog about my ' thanksgiving ' but I'm bad at hiding my feelings and this shouldn't be one of them. As far as I can remember I have always loathed the holidays ( yes, even Xmas ) I can only remember two thanksgiving dinners that were special ( one year my mom actually made Turkey, and last years when I was surrounded by my second family in L.A ) and the rest werent anything special , and this year is really no different. As I write this, I can sense families getting together, laughing together, toasts being made, and children running around having a great time. Since I woke up today, I have been getting wonderful emails from everyone wishing me a ' Happy Thanksgiving ' and also asking me what I am thankful for, this has caused me some type of reflection, I am very thankful for my family, even though I'm not around them as much as I would hope for, I'm thankful they are my family, my mother's memory, my job, thankful for being able to still be able to feel even though its usually heart pain, its still a feeling and it reminds me I'm still alive. I don't want to keep writing because I sense that my pre-packaged ' dinner ' might be getting cold in the microwave. I just realized that this post has taken me over an hr to write, and over 1o songs have played in the duration of it.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
There is beauty in release...
I know its been a while since Ive written in this mutha, but have been swamped at work, and with the holidays fastly approaching and contracts ending, its been a mad house. Anyways, so to the weekend, I finally went to a straight club on Saturday night, and I must say it was a pretty good crowd, of course I used the whole ' I'm a writer and writing a piece for this club line ' that got me some pretty good lead way with the staff and owners, needless to say that even got some some free drinks. The thing is I was documenting some experiences for an upcoming article on how gay guys are treated or looked at, in trendy straight clubs/bars. I'll have some more info on this as soon as I can.
Sunday, I did something very crazy, but something that I have been dying to do for sometime. I signed up to the ' AIDS LIFE CYCLE 09 ' The trip will be from SF to L.A and its a 545 mile trip, that will be from May 31 to June 6. I am currently forming a team, probably for my Org or for loved ones' that I have lost to this disease. I will begging training for this right after Dec 1st ( my world is all over my event ) so then I shall have some free time, and I think school will also keep me busy. Just wanted to let you know whats going on, and that I will be my warning cuz, you know Imma hit you guys up for sponsorship. Its almost 7 p.m, and that lets me know that my 12 hr day is almost ending...lol
A huge hug to all of you, and will write in this mutha later, oh.... yea BTW ' HAPPY THANKSGIVING! ' please save me some pumpkin pie ;-)
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I'd do it again, again. Wildflower pt 2.
So, about two years and some months ago, I wrote one of my best works and most personal poems to date , entitled ' wildflower, you are ( work in progress )' for ****d, as I was going through some of my works, I found it and It still holds true to the feelin' and love that I have. I wanted to rework it, due to the fact that It wasnt current enough and my feelings werent that mature. The love has always been there ( and always will be ) but the beauty in life is that we all grow, and begin to see life in a diffrent light.Even at our most darkest period can become our most profetic, so here is my newer edit.
* My beautiful brown eyes, I always told you that forever you'd be my wildflower.
Showing up wherever beauty's had lost its way, from early on, I knew that my heart would break , in all your beauty your heart must have been broken. I was free until I heard the song you sang me to me. Pulling me away from everything I knew, Id do it all again, in a heartbeat, just to be with you. Everything I ever knew faded away, although your smile will forever be etched into my heart. Every time you left it hurt me so, I don't know why It did, now I know we're free...Free to fly. There we were burning faster than the closest star. Falling back down to the Earth in our own realm, we fell, along the way I fell in the ditch. I love you so much at times that I think this wound will never heal. In that ditch you will find me, standing at the bottom , hoping and waiting for you with my arms stretched open wide. I'll whisper softly to you to come inside And everything I've known will again fade away. Its a fact that when a wildflower grows, always picks its space .And that's the way its been since the beginning of time, you chose me, and chose when. This was when nature became a force greater than myself it played its lovely hand. One day I will understand everything. Everything.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
I just woke up from a fuzzy dream...
Good afternoon!
Ive been wanting to say that for sometime, but every time I post something I always end up posting it at night, so I guess you figured out that I am a nite owl. I just got to work, and have been in talks with a certain magazine to follow my hijinks L.A. Ive been pitching the story around and they seem interested, I cant say much, but I hope it goes through. Also thank you so much for all the emails that I received about my last post, I was just so tired and feeling as though I was about to crash, Ive been dealing with work as though I live to work, not the other way around. Lets see that the future holds.
On Tuesday, I was invited to an amazing Birthday party for my good friend Xavier, at The STANDARD in Dtw L.A. I had never been there before, but was actually amazed at the view, and how comfy the place was. I arrived there right after 8 p.m, the place was packed with the wall street type guys, all in suits and women with a sophisticated flair, which kind of made me miss my old hang out in Lakewood. Inside was the Birthday boy with all his friends, very nice guys, and very chatty as well, but the fact that I wasn't drinking and straight out of work made me wanna talk and talk about politics and OBAMA, and you know how I feel all about that. Needles to say that by 9 p.m, the drinks started coming my way and I wasn't looking back. I ended up leaving the party by Midnight only to be re-directed to Circus, seems that I had almost forgotten to meet up with the guys, and they werent taking ' no ' as an option, so there I am getting home, at 3 a.m, only to be awoken at 7 a.m for my meeting. ARGH!
Today is my only ' chill day ' until Sunday afternoon, I am taking my nephews out for lunch on Sunday afternoon, so I'm excited about seeing my babies.
**** NOTE: I wanted to answer some questions about this blog.
1) The titles of the post's are usually saying, lyrics or stanza's that I'm working on, thinking about or remind me of the event. I'm not crazy ;-)
2) The poems are a way of telling how I'm feeling that day.
3) And don't forget to comment on anything.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Dont want to feel the pain, what good would It do me now
So, Its 10:20 p.m, I'm just getting home, haven't been here since Sat night. If I say I'm tired will I be seen as weak? Would I be whining if I said I needed a hug? I feel like I may be burning myself short, Ive sold myself short, so why not this? Been feeling like I may need a rest, but then again, feel that I am at a great part in my life where I can go anywhere, so why not take this road?
That should be suffice for my whining for the rest of the month, glad that's over with ;-)
I had a pretty hectic weekend, did some light shopping, visited my nephews ( took them to Chuck. E. Cheese , and bought both of them toys. Being with them only makes me wanna have kids, but all in due time. I finally got around to see ' Zach and Miri make a porno ' I thought it was good, but the love story really killed it for me, I know me being the romantic that I am actually said that.. ha! I don't know but I really wanted to see Seth Rogen nude ;-(.
As I write this I'm going over the meeting that I had for the Latino No on Prop 8 committee that is forming... very excited to be able to be a part of this up coming national campaign, so I am working on my notes and what I will present to my colleagues tomorrow morning, and getting ready for a B'day party @ The STANDARD, and then I have to go to Circus and work. So If you see me tomorrow, don't be shy and ' holla at cha boy '.
One thing I will say, and this will be the last thing. Being at the meeting was odd, not because of my stance on the ' NO ON PROP 8 ' but because, for a brief second I thought I was going to my old house in L.A. I had just given my speech, and glanced at the clock on the wall, it read 9:40 p.m, my first reaction was ' damn, I gotta tell E****d, that I will be getting home late.. then, It hit me. I looked down, got my case, shook hands and was on my way out, felt a lil surprised by my thinking, I must admit.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Last Night A DJ Saved my life
So, last night I was invited to the Bienestar AIDS gala ( Latino Factory 5 ) being held at the Mayan theater in Downtown L.A. Being that this was one of the last fashion events of the year I didn't hesitate to attend, at the VIP ticket was even better. So I arrived with my Best friend Danny, Joe, Jesse, Ricardo, Alex, Anthony and Edgar at around 6:30, after I ran around my office changing clothes and I was actually surprised that the evening went off without a hitch.
I was excited to be in a room full of L.A Fashion glitterati and I welcomed the exchange that I had with several people there that recognized me from my magazine column ( Carrie Bradshaw, all the way ;0-) ) and had a great time meeting people and just trying to be social, which wasn't hard at all, Ive always thought of myself as being a social misfit, and being very shy and withdrawn from people, I know.. I know. But maybe I found my set of people or I'm just finding out that I can be comfortable in my own skin, it must be an age thing I guess. Needles to say the event was a great fun, met many people that I had lost contact in over the years and found a lil part of myself, fashion, music, friends and alcohol, the only thing that was missing is my plus one to walk with me and take pics with me.. but until I find my partner, I am pretty happy with my best friend and crime partner.
Here are some of the pictures of the event, sorry I'm not more poetic or deep, but Ive been SO tired since last night. Have a great weekend!!!!!!!!
I was excited to be in a room full of L.A Fashion glitterati and I welcomed the exchange that I had with several people there that recognized me from my magazine column ( Carrie Bradshaw, all the way ;0-) ) and had a great time meeting people and just trying to be social, which wasn't hard at all, Ive always thought of myself as being a social misfit, and being very shy and withdrawn from people, I know.. I know. But maybe I found my set of people or I'm just finding out that I can be comfortable in my own skin, it must be an age thing I guess. Needles to say the event was a great fun, met many people that I had lost contact in over the years and found a lil part of myself, fashion, music, friends and alcohol, the only thing that was missing is my plus one to walk with me and take pics with me.. but until I find my partner, I am pretty happy with my best friend and crime partner.
Here are some of the pictures of the event, sorry I'm not more poetic or deep, but Ive been SO tired since last night. Have a great weekend!!!!!!!!
Monday, November 10, 2008
Phone
You stopped picking up the phone,
Guess you know its me
And this little masochist think's that he is ready to confess
All the things that I never thought that he could ever feel start coming out.
Nothing has been the same
Thought we both could use a friend to run to, then again I was never the one you ran to.
I thought I wouldnt have to be with you as something new.
Sometime's I breathe you in. I know you know
Sometimes you take a swim in my broken heart, found your name all on my wall
If my heart is soaking wet, then we know that your shoes can leave a mess behind.
Thought I knew myself so well, all my mind stuttering left me behind.
Your apocalypse on my heart was great, for a man who couldnt choose between Mozarella Cheese or Panela.
Your not picking up the phone , guess its clear that youve' moved on.
This little masochist Is lifting up his shirt, I thought I could never feel the things I feel and will feel.
Thought we could both us a friend to run to...
Saturday, November 8, 2008
I drove alongside...
Ive been wanting to write in this mutha for a few days now, but have been busy with work and life. First some good news, I'm a published author, getting my motorcycle license in the next few weeks, and will be back on the USC campus to get my B.A in liberal Arts next year! and after 2 years, one of my dearest friends Lourdes is getting married, I just found out this Wed, during our ABBEY run, she is also moving to NYC and best of all the wedding will be on Dec 27, in PARIS! so, I know I better start packing ;-).
Ive also started to work some more on my next article and what direction I want to go with it, and the path I want to take my readers in, and of course I need to take a better pic, one that doesn't make me look like an escort!. You would never believe how many offers I got from it, and I have to admit some did boost my ego. I think the most awkward part of it all was showing the magazine to my family I was a lil hesitant to show them, I mean they have seen me half naked before but never in print, they were supportive and very happy with my new ' job ', so I was pleased. Last night I had to write a ' get to know me ' piece and I honestly felt that I was writing a personals ad, some of those questions were a bit out there, I mean Ive seen it all but they even made me take a moment and think about. I will be posting them when I get them back, as for now, I just want to relax and unwind from such a hectic week, and not to mention last weekend.
The picture was taken when I got my hair ' did ' before barely making my plane this week. I look sooo tired, but its all in a days work ;-)
Oh, and I had floor seats for Madonna.Thursday, November 6, 2008
While the time slipped away...
Images of broken photographs, dance before me like a millions eyes,
and call me on, and on.
Get so caught up in you everyday
Trying to keep it all together
While the time just slips away.
I know nothing last forever
there is no tomorrow
I cant see your face, when I wake up anymore.
No limit to my sorrow.
This means nothing If I don't say something before it all goes away.
Don't wanna wait to bring you flowers, waste another hour....Let alone another day.
I'm gonna tell you something, show you something...dont wanna , won't wait till it's too late
Just a simple conversation, a moment is all it takes.I want to be there just to listen.... I wanna be there.
And I don't wanna hesitate. Did I put it off for too long?
I didn't say all that I had to say.
Should have taken the time to make it right before the wrong won, then I got to this place.
Babe, Just lean on my shoulder It's not over till it's over.
Don't worry 'bout it cause I'm gonna make sure our bond gets stronger.
I didnt want to wait until the storm, something was wrong and now you're gone , I can't find you. Imagine my sorrow.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Losing, I am but not Lost.
Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost.
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse
I just got lost in every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...
You might be a big fish In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come a bigger one
And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off,
Just becuase Im losing, doesnt mean I am lost.
Doesn't mean I'm lost.
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse
I just got lost in every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...
You might be a big fish In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come a bigger one
And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off,
Just becuase Im losing, doesnt mean I am lost.
Friday, October 24, 2008
I stay
Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it, make or break up...can't take this madness.
We don't even really know why.All I know is baby I try and try so hard to keep our love alive.
If you don't know me at this point, then I highly doubt you ever will.
I really need you to give me that unconditional love I used to feel.
It's a mistake if we just erase it from our hearts and minds, yet I know
you said let go but I kept on hanging on, even though inside I know it's over. You're really gone, It's killing me' cause there ain't nothing that I can do... Babes, I stay in love with you . I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around And I try to front like "Oh well" Each time you let me down see I can't get over you now. No matter what I do.
It cuts so deepIt hurts down to my soul, my friends tell me I ain't the same no more..... We still need each other when we stumble and fall. How we gonna act like what we had ain't nothin' at all now. Hey, what I wanna do is ride shotgun next to you holding your hand as we drove all over Santa Monica, as I would caressed your leg, as we headed to Sparro's, wind hitting our faces, and dog hair flying all over the car.
You in your Caddy, shy smile and white will always be yours....we both know that my heart is breaking... I will learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone...now go I know.
We don't even really know why.All I know is baby I try and try so hard to keep our love alive.
If you don't know me at this point, then I highly doubt you ever will.
I really need you to give me that unconditional love I used to feel.
It's a mistake if we just erase it from our hearts and minds, yet I know
you said let go but I kept on hanging on, even though inside I know it's over. You're really gone, It's killing me' cause there ain't nothing that I can do... Babes, I stay in love with you . I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around And I try to front like "Oh well" Each time you let me down see I can't get over you now. No matter what I do.
It cuts so deepIt hurts down to my soul, my friends tell me I ain't the same no more..... We still need each other when we stumble and fall. How we gonna act like what we had ain't nothin' at all now. Hey, what I wanna do is ride shotgun next to you holding your hand as we drove all over Santa Monica, as I would caressed your leg, as we headed to Sparro's, wind hitting our faces, and dog hair flying all over the car.
You in your Caddy, shy smile and white will always be yours....we both know that my heart is breaking... I will learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone...now go I know.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
The Man who sold me out.
I passed upon the stairs,
I spoke to you of was and when
Although I wasnt there
He said I was his friend
Which came as a surprise
I spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone
A long time ago
Could It have been me?
I have never lost control
Being face to face,
With the man who sold the world
I laughed and shook his hand,
I made my way back home,
I searched for form and land,
Years and years I roamed,
I gazed a gazely stare
We walked a million hills
I must have died alone,
A long, long time ago
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