Happiness

I have to admit that I had one of the best weekends in recent memory. My nephew Matthew had his baptism and turned 2 yrs old and I was able to bring some special people within my family. I think I'm at a great place in my life where things seem to be falling into place and the pace other things are I really couldn't ask for more. This weekend brought me some clarity on and I'm very happy to see where love will lead me, I've been getting a few emails asking me about my love-life and I have decided to not make it a part of this blog. Believe it or not when I'm dating someone I like to keep it private since alof of my life is all over the place,matters of the heart tend to make me wanna shield that part of me. I will say that I'm happy and loving the smiles.


I have been working on a few new parts of music and soon will be updating the blog with some demos that I have been working on, I am trying to find a new sound since most of my music has been ' club music ' and I find myself more and more time at the gym I have been influenced by alot of Rap and Rock so I've been working on that.

Gym: I am now benching 290 lbs, and I'm happy I only have 10 lbs more to go to reach my 300 lbs goal. I also started boxing on top of kickboxing, and will start taking Jacob ( my nephew ) with me to the ' kiddie gym ' this Saturday for weight lifting class...I love it!!!



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And I feel, like I just got home

Below you will find some songs I have recently messed around with.. hope you enjoy them,
Madonna vs Beyonce and Gaga ( two people that need a vacation, badly )http://www.zshare.net/audio/711237744b11ea60/

Oasis ' Wonderwall '
http://www.zshare.net/audio/71258737f926a4b2/

The wind through my hair...

This weekend I really just laid low, I've been in a funk mood lately where I dont want to be around people. I have been spending time at my usual spot the gym and then jetting off to go hiking. In my solitude I have decided to get back on a motorcycle, besides its been almost a year and a half since my last accident and I think I have finally learned that I need to wear a helmet, at all times. I want to feel the adrenaline rushing through my veins again and having the wind go through my hair as I speed towards the sun.

2009, my year back at the Gym.

One thing I can say with great honesty is that 2009 was the year that I stepped back into to the gym and began to get the body that I have always wanted. As the year came to a close I managed to spend countless hours working out on how my body would work with the routines, and even up to this day Im still learning. I weighed myself on New Years day and came in at 212 lbs ( started at 186 lbs without muscle ) went from a size 15 1/2 dress shirt to a size 17, Small T-shirts to XL large shirts. Im loving where my body is headed and very proud of myself. This pic was taken on January 1st 2010 ( 5:45 p.m ) Whittier Preserve. Even my face seems fuller, now if I can get my butt to get bigger ;-)

2009, what a year!!!

2009 was an amazing year, sure I broke a few hearts but most importantly I wore amazing outfits and had the best people around me. Became closer to the man I will become, and have inspired people ( so I've been told ) and have made some great music along the way. All in all, next year will have a hard time trying to beat 2009. Having my family and friends behind, and following my heart is the way to go.


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Vacay!!!

So I'm finally on my vacation and although I wanted to go somewhere but thought that it would be best to spend it with my family. Today was my first day and I can't believe how exciting it was to be able to wake up late. I spent the day with my brother and the evening with my nephews, loved spending time with them as we ate pizza and wrestled.


Today I got my first shipment of ' New Years Eve ' clothing, Ted Baker has sent me some amazing pieces and cannot wait to wear the pieces.


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The me, who tries to listen

Last night I invited my Cuban neighbor over for dinner and drinks. Its been a while since we hung out and his stories about his love life and the trials that he goes through have always been my favorite. This time though he seemed a bit tense, so after an hr of watching ' Trash TV ' I asked him about what has been going on as of late, I told him about my last relationship and he has always been very persist ant in us going on. One thing about him, is that he is extremely good looking, the kind that you would never think he would give you the time of day, so when we became friends it was a bit of a shock to me, Anyways he then became a bit quiet and I began prodding about his love life, and at that point he just started to break-down. On the bed, he started crying and mumbling that its not fair that he has to try so hard and that the guy he was seeing was being an ass to him, that he wasn't used to being place on ' the shelf ' and at that point he just lost it. He excused himself from my place and apologized for making a scene. I was scared about his well being, he never struck me as the kind of guy that has to try and get a guys attention, he has a great smile and perfect body...I am able to see past all that and see who he is, and this was a bit of a wake-up call in the sense that we all go through our own personal love disasters and that we are not alone in them. Made me realize that things could be worse or could be better, and this too was a great way for me to practice listening to people, and actually letting them speak without me interrogating them and saying something either stupid or inappropriate. Listening is an art, I'm still trying to learn.

Funny how 29 years can be summed up in 3 months.

The past few days, I have been a bit saddened by the course that my actions have created. Its funny how one person can make you realize that the path that you have been on has been wrong. I have dated many guys but they all seemed to accept me for who I am, and kinda got a kick out it they never questioned why I lived the way I did, never really made me think about myself or really made me wanna change. Then he came around and I was too stuck on my ways to really appreciate the person that I had in front of me, I was too self-involved in my jaded ways, and in the way that I was treating him. People often say that they ' bring they re work with them ' and I brought my practices that I use on my clients on him. The ' whys and whens ' are haunting me and I just cant seem to get out of my funk. This and the fact that I'm about to turn 30 in April are all I have been thinking about and to top it off its almost Christmas and then is New Years Eve, and I will again be the lovely singleton that New Years always has.

The Strangest thing

Today I saw the strangest thing on the evening news a man who wasn't sad at all about what's going on. Even though I'm trying to smile with everything I see it could take a while. I've been looking everywhere I go
Where has all the love gone?
I've been looking all around to know where has all the love gone?

Yesterday I heard you say you never close your eyes
Sometimes the world's a scary ride, it's hard to hang on
Along the way we got off track
And if we turn around can we ever get back? You say it was there when we were young. Today I saw a flag roll by on a wooden box
And if it's true we lost our way
Then what have we got?

If you could ' Save Me '

You look like... a perfect fit,for a boy in need... of a tourniquet.
But can you save me? If you could save me,from the ranks of the freaks,
Who suspect they could never love anyone. 'Cause I can tell... you know what it's like. A long farewell... of the hunger strike. You struck me dumb, Like radium
like Peter Pan, or Superman, you have come... to save me.

No more nightmares!

Anyone that follows me on Facebook, Twitter etc, knows that Lady Gaga has been a part of my nightmares for the past 2 months. I kid you not. So, being the person I am, and believing in the power of music I have understood that it can have healing powers. Here is my latest offering in hopes that she stops scaring


Lady Gaga - Telepone ( MIgs VS Mix )
http://www.zshare.net/audio/69433307890e35ec/

Finding MIGS

This was during my pre-Thanksgiving feast, where I worked out so I could enjoy the food...

For the past few days, I have been in this ' funk ' my life is going well, nothing to complain about.. I have just been feeling like my life is a routine. I noticed that I have been working out, and working at my job and afterwards all I want to do is stay home and relax. I know this is great every once in a while but if it doesnt have to do with the gym or work, Im not interested. The exception of course is my family which whom I am closer now than ever. I think I may need a vacation, and just forget about work for a while, I have also been noticing that I have been taking alot of my clients problems home with me, I have been getting very emotional with them and feel as though I never do enough to help them. Ive been placed onto theire lives for a reason and Im never happy with the results.





As I stated earlier about my family, I have been spending the weekends taking my babies ( nephews ) anywhere they wish, this past weekend was ' Planet 51 ' this time though I took Matthew ( age 2 ) to the theather and was pretty well behaved and Jacob wasnt too thrilled that the film wasnt in 3D, but the endless popcorn made up for it.