Thursday, June 24, 2010

Good on paper but loose morals


A few weeks ago I had been talking to an older man, that seemed to fit all requirements that I am looking for and since I was thinking of going back to dating I though that I should be picky on the subject on who I date, not that I haven't been picky already but well you get the idea. He seemed to be a family guy, educated, funny, and had a great body so I gave it a shot, little did I know I would be stuck in an episode of ' Sex And The City 's ' The Princess and the Pee ' If you aren't familiar with the episode we'll just say that the ' perfect ' guy Carrie is dating has a fetish with Urine, well mine dealt with having sex with food and a case of a middle aged 30 yr old thinking he was 21 and at his sexual peak. Needless to say that was where I have to draw the line, I could over look a lot of things but when someone is still trying to find themselves at that age and don't care to make themselves look like Im not one to stick around for that. Im thinking its pretty rare to find a guy that will have respect for himself, Im all up for ' sexual liberation' but then again you thread on a thin line of just looking like a tramp and that look isn't coming in for summer 2010.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Stanza1


What you gave me, I know you gave me. You remind me all the time And how you hurt me and you never saw it...Again I am the child. Though you tell me that you love me I can’t feel it and I’m afraid to let you down. It’s all or nothing, I fear that something’s wrong. I was tired of walking on eggshells so terrified to fail And in order to please you I had abandoned myself. Though it used to hurt me when you pushed me away I’m stronger than ever, you made me this way.

How I wish you, you suffered less too It tears us both apart And it’s not pretty the way you criticized me And how it breaks my heart. And though you tell me that you love me I can’t feel it. How I wish you knew, how much I needed you, I felt like running but I can’t abandoned you. You avoided my gaze, withdrew from me those days.
You punished me for trying to be all that you wanted, What more can I do?