Eddie, the story has ended.

I had my first ' Adult ' conversation with Edward today, its been a while since we both used our ' inside voices ', the saga seems to be about to end its course this weekend. I just ordered my new phone, will get an unlisted phone number, address is changed and my stuff will be either donated to charities or sold to fund my favorite Charity ( APLA ). I decided not to be the ass-hole ands let him keep the dog, which I really wanted...but I know that he would be in better hands with him than with me and my crazy life-style. The conversation got me thinking about how I felt about Edward, was it really love? or was I simply addicted to the pain? the exquisite pain of wanting someone so unattainable? Some part of me wanted to go back to him, but I couldn't, somehow I restrained myself and grew some balls, was I finally tired of going along and trying to be something I wasn't? I chose to walk away, and just like that I leave my universe holding the hand of my Edward. I managed to get untied, the end is here and I am finally free. What more could one ask for when one is free? Even though getting here has been hard, its a blessing in disguise.

You are my destiny

New Remix,
Pussycat Dolls ' Jai Ho ' This is part of my new project labeled ' 42 ' enjoy,
http://www.zshare.net/audio/59039685862e72f1/

Now and then

Last night I had the pleasure and great surprise to attend Britney Spears ' Circus ' tour, needles to say that I had an amazing time. Britney really outdid herself this time around, it was very different from the last time that I had seen her in concert in the now Infamous ' House Of Blues ' Concert in Hollywood. The ticket that I was able to get came as a Birthday present, It was 5th row, front and center. I was in awe when I was given the ticket, in attendance was Rhianna, Lucy Lu, Drew Barrymore, Jamie Presley, Kim Kardashian, Kathy Griffin etc. I only had eyes for Brit. All night I kept on calling people when a specif song would play, or Id be snapping pics, As I arrived home I couldn't believe on how much cash I shelled out last night, now I finally have my ' IF U SEEK AMY ' thong.

All in all, a great start to a Birthday a can finally enjoy, for once.

A Dodger dog, Two Bud Lights and Three strikes.

Below you will find something that emerged from last night, its a song by Jazmine Sullivan ' Dream Big ' the Number 42 Mix. Hope you enjoy it,

Jazmine Sullivan ' Dream Big '

I love that sound...

Ive been working on alot of new and incredible projects, and I cant wait to let you know about them, but I will keep mum for now. I have been also dabbing back in music, so here is my newest mix of Tiga's new song ' Shoes ', I wanted to try and give the video some justice.


Tiga Shoes Migs Mix

How about getting off of these Anti-Biotics...

Ive begun to look at myself under the microscope and at my ripe ol' age of 29 ( April 20th, baby ) I can finally say that I am free. Although Im well on my way to make myself the person that I am becoming, I still cant help but feel empty inside, I guess you can say that Ive been going through life with a checklist and not with much of the passion, havent really felt passion in a while. for instance, this past weekend : On April 4th, I helped stage a huge LGBT participation in Downtown L.A for Cesar E. Chavez, hundreds of people were there to support the LGBT equality issue and even though it made me feel great to be able to have the support of everyone and to know we are all trying to get togther and be heard ( I still felt alone ), Monday came wjth a press conference regarding the CureCVS campaign that ive also been a part of it, a cause that gained nation-wide attention,still alone. Friday, I got to meet Miss Universe 2009, a moment that I would have wished and been excited about, but nontheless I felt great as the cameras were on me, but off of them I just felt empty, and alone.


These past few days have seen me getting everything Ive been working with but I dont have the love or support from people in my inner circle, Its crazy to say this but I feel so useful when Im at work then when I am home, alone. Dont get me wrong Ive tried to stay home and chil but its almost like I need someone by my side to make me feel that everything will be ok. Maybe, I should take the advice given to me on friday night by Breene,and ' shut the fuck up, buck up and continue to make a name for yourself, people will come and go but you need to run and finish ' true, he also did ask me to take another shot...but maybe this should be my new Mantra, what to do now.
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