Wont settle for anything but butterflies.....

Ive been seeing this cycle that has been a re-occurring theme in my relationships. The theme that I loose interest in the other person or better yet that they cant seem to sustain my interest.I have been feeling a bit forced to try and work on these problems because I have dated some great guys but after the chase I am usually done and want to move forward. Guess I shouldn't force myself, when its time for me to be ' In love ' it will happen organically. It was fun while it lasted though.

On brighter news, I have finally achieved my perfect tan '

When the past isnt the anchor necessarily, Circa ( 2005- 2008 )

I was going through some online photo albums tonight and found pics from my ' Eddie ' phase, although this phase has been placed in the back of the closet where the patented leather belts reside I couldn't help but notice how I looked but more shockingly how I dressed. I cant even begin to understand what was going through my mind as I look at myself, let alone how I must have been in the relationship, If I was able to forgo so much of myself where was all my attention going? Regarless it just looks like it was one unhealthy mess, just looking at the pics remind me of it.

When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

A Police man, then I dated them and they are all assholes. So i guess I missed my mark

Ask me anything

Im Bionic, Baby!!

Just wanted to place my newest remix of Christina Aguilera's title track 'Bionic ' I am hoping to be able to rework this mix when I get the acapella and can properly work on it. Hope you enjoy my attempt at making a ' circuit ' type mix


http://www.zshare.net/audio/7808426053d04621/

Three outfit changes, two beers and one EX

Yesterday was the 4th of July and I alongside two buddies of mine went to the happening ' pool party ' which wasn't too far from my house ( always a good Idea ) there was an interesting mix of people that I have known for at least two years and some further than that. I had text'd my ex in seeing if he would be going ( not that ex, try someone back in Oct- Dec 2009 ) and he said he would be there. Well I haven't seen him since we broke up and I guess it was the alcohol but we had one of the most interesting conversations that we ever had and we discussed the reasons why he broke up with me.. stemming from the fact that he didn't think I was serious about ' us ' and that we didn't communicate. Well it seems that this is always the same reason that the 'good one ' slips through my hands. X told me not to dwell on it and that I responded to the relationship the way I did cuz maybe I wasn't interested, I don't know but It was great seeing him and felt great talking to him. Guess its safe to say that I give the people that don't matter in my life the importance that they don't deserve and the ones that do I don't.



Well, I did manage to get my Speedo on and rocked the hell out of it, felt good.

Summer lovin'

So Ive been having a pretty crazy Summer, and as always I keep on saying I will update this blog more often but you know what ends up happening. I am taking a witting course at SC and feeling very Carrie if I may add, I have begun looking into what will I start wearing this season. I have gotten some looks that I have begun using and think that I'm going for a Late 40's summer look incorporating some vintage Gucci and some tighter silhouettes. I have also started dating someone, its all still pretty fresh and low-key. I will say that he is amazing, has a great family and I'm excited about it. He is the type of guy that you look for but rarely find, I have a great feeling about this one, and the fact that we haven't kissed yet is pretty badass.