The years burn...

Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boySo old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
Whats a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one whos left alone


I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
Whats a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Just walking by

Today Ive been running around all day, bad for me.. but good for you. For my upcomming shinding I have taken to remixing some classic songs to give the party a throw-back, uptempo commercial feel and what better way that remixing Britney ( TOXIC ) and Donna Summer ( I feel love )... enjoy.

And I want to thank Mr. Nelson Sanchez ( I know.. ) for helping me get one step closer to my goal for the AIDS LIFECYCLE 09. Now I owe him a drink @ Circus.

http://www.zshare.net/audio/54525714d2454c27/


Check his blog out at:
http://thelostroads.blogspot.com/

The question is still the answer

Friday got off to a Fierce! ( SASHA FIERCE!!! mind you ) with BAO's B'day party @ The ABBEY. I was feeling pretty sick, but I had promised him that I was gonna show up in my J.lindberg and you know I hate to back down when I give my word, so there I was. Once I got there I wondered why I havent been there in years, the music was great, people had a great time, and I was being hit on left and right. Loves it!


Now on Saturday, that was another story. I had to go to back to SC to get some stuff I had left behind in one of my crazy late-nite study groups (your PNP joke, right here ) then I met up with Carlos for a 8 hr meeting to discuss PROP 8, and all that jazz. I think If it wasnt for the open bar that was given to us I have no idea what would have happened, on Sat stood home, opened a bottle of wine and had a great time with friends ( I can have a quiet night at home, on a Sat night.. so ha! )


Sunday, I spend it with >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>, we went to church and had champagen brunch at one of my favorite places in Lakewood ( East Side Marios' ), we were joined by both of my brothers and my nephews. It was amazing just to have a great meal and have soo much fun with my family that I have begun to re-connect with.
This is a pic of me, with my 2 nephews and secretly Im hoping I will get a niece soon!

Monday, was great. I was asked that question that no guy with 75 pairs of jeans, 200 T shirts , 300 pairs of underwear and countless jackets should be asked when looking at an apt. ' Is this closet big enough for you ? ' the answer was still ' no ' but loved being asked.

A better life..

I want to say thank you!for everyone that downloaded my remix of ' Womanizer ' I loved your emails, and my readership has grown aswell. THANK YOU! Im leaving today, and wanted to leave you guys with this, until my return.


Tips for Better Life

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3. Sleep for 7 hours.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did the previous year.
7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
9. Dream more while you are awake.
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
11. Drink plenty of water.
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
14. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
18. Smile and laugh more.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don't compare your partner with others.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
25. Forgive everyone for everything.
26. What other people think of you is none of your business.
27. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
28. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
29. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
30. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
31. The best is yet to come.
32. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
33. Do the right thing!
34. Call your family often.
35. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
36. Each day give something good to others.
37. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
38. Share this with someone you care about

I've been watching you all day...

I think I may be coming down with something, I blame the weather.. I should be blaming my trainer Juan, but Im scared he'll have me do more push-ups. Also all the food that Im consumming is making my stomach hurt, but hey I'll look great dancing in my uderwear one day right? Kidding!

I dont have much to say today, but wanted to post these remixes that I did recently. The first 2 are remixes that I was requested to remix by Mr. Mike Castellanos, and I was more than happy to mix for him. They are Jesse Mcarntney's ' Leavin' ' also remixed Womanizer by Britney for Mr. Sanchez. I know he would love the sample I used.

Mr. Castellano Mix
http://www.zshare.net/audio/54148434b2adc111/

The Castellano Evelated Mix:
http://www.zshare.net/audio/54148534c6bc6945

The Acoustic Version:

http://www.zshare.net/audio/54148625b7959e5b

and Britney: WOMANIZER ( this one I actually remixed for Mr. Sanchez )
http://www.zshare.net/audio/54148747d0ec3414/

' this American boy...'

On Friday night I was invited to attend a special performance by ' Estelle ' the british artist made popular by her song w/ Kanye West ' American Boy '. It was a great concert she had great interaction with the crowd and you could tell she was a lil too confortable with them.I've only added one video but I will be adding more later on.

I should have.. I would have. I did.

Maybe this is forever? Even when forever can fade away, like a rocket ascending into space.
could you not be sad? could you not break down? After all I won't let go. Until you're safe and sound. There's beauty in release when there's no one left to please but you and me. I don't blame you for quitting deep down I know you really tried. If only you could hang on through the night because I don't want to be lonely and I don't want you to be scared, and sad. And all our friends are waiting for us on the other side, left is just you and me.
Always felt like I could've held on one more day and almost like I could've let go. Feel like I could've helped you and like I could've changed you as you did to me. I also could've held on and I could've hurt you even more than we already are. At times I felt like I was a stranger and an angel all in one day. Felt like I was a hero but was a zero. Still I touched you, and that I’ve sealed, I could've held you and moved you all in a life span still wish I could heal you, I should have healed you. I could’ve loved you, know I really did love you. I really loved you. I should have saved you. I could’ve saved you